Superbowl Suck-day

well it's Superbowl Sunday. I'm being completely ignored by like 3 people plus the only person I've been wanting to talk to since my birthday. my attitude is so jacked up today and i honestly can't fathom why... I know I miss my "ninja" terribly but he won't say more than 3 words to me at a time. I know it's mostly my fault and I've admitted this but I need him more than I ever thought I did :( everybody is telling me to let it go but nobody fully understands how much he was really there for me. God I need to fix this and FAST